One of my teachers yelled this at me the other at the end of my exam:

You should be ashamed of showing such a very bad work like this! I can’t even believe that you actually really thought it was worth for me to read it! You can not study! You are not made for any kind of studies! Knowledge is nothing you will ever have! You should NEVER be a teacher because you think you’re better than others but you’re nothing much than a thief! You probably stole a part of the work to one of the most brilliant student in the class and you really thought I won’t see it? Shame on you! I don’t want to hear anything from you, not even your name, anymore!

Yes. A teacher. You probably think that he said that to make me feel bad. You know what? It’s a success… I’m destroyed.

I don’t think I can actually have my grade. It was my very last one, the only one to not fail at. And he decided that I should fail and do another whole last year one more time.

No. I give up. He won. Again. Like all the others. He won, I don’t want that anymore… And my heart is broken because I’m a failure.

By the way, I’m not a thief. I don’t need anyone to give me anything to prove that I can do (shitty) things bby myself. And I actually don’t know the people in my class because they don’t talk to me and I don’t look after them. Anyway…


1 thought on “Failure

  1. I didn’t like this post because of the fact that you ‘failed’ but I liked the fact that you succeed in recognising the key points of this particular failure. That’s right, this is one (little) failure — not a whole life of failure. It is very easy to say this, but I think it’s appropriate: try not to let one situation drag you down. Think of what you have achieved in life. Is it that you achieved several languages? Is it that you have a really good close friend…. I hope you get the idea — you are not a failure, on this occasion you feel like a total failure, but looking at the ‘bigger picture’ you have achieved quite a lot. You are a success, don’t you think so? I hope you feel a little better soon 🙂 Try to remember your successes!

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